wau... didnt get to sleep good yesterday. but it's all good, thanks to the magic pil and i slept 5 hours straight to noon.
prepared myself.....tick tak tick tak....30 mins later im at the town, checking my loan balance from bank. and updated some sort of routine basis. then bought nice lunch back for parents but myself... nahh, just dont feel like eating lunch since i ate plain bread a while ago.
rushed to the kitchen and started to prepare ingredients to cook chicken rice and sauce...my first attempt...LOL
hmm..... every family has their difficulties, this difficulties may include financial crisis, family violence, work pressure as well as disappointment among family/ families member.
months i have been hearing mom told me about her families, some issue about the usual gossip, family's properties, asset this and that. things about what my granny, my uncles, aunties as well as relatives even since she went to relative wedding dinner last weekend with cousins. LOL.... what a speed update sesion for mom.
well, actually all these wedding occasion, family gathering during chinese new year and meet extended families member once in a blue moon or once a year just to update and greet each other. and glad to be there and see everyone still healthy, laughing and so so....
some shocking news i heard lately was about the grandpa will. well, nothing much to comment, since mom and us not his fav. but should we or shouldnt we be nice since we never make it to his fav list. as far i know, we or not those crappy shyte*. at least still up to standard level.... hahhahah!
basically, the whole thing is just unfair towards others in the family. as i mentioned before, althought mom is the first child in the family, but we are not the fav nor popular due to.......poverty. ahhah! and thanks god we were!! so..... so, u will know if u ever been through the stage of hell! seriously duno how to put it in lines when i talk about them. speechless* sigh
atleast we are blessed, mom brother fee and me is good enough, still healthy and kicking! the rest, i really dont expect any thing from them. because they always dont look up on us any way. money money talks all the time, showing off and such, bla bla bla. as long as i see them, i joke, i laugh, i talk nicely and that's it!! no thanks for the rest alright! bye and good day!we are contented with wat we are having and all these issue i will just treat it as a live show going on, sit back nicely and watch, listen and observe. i do what i should and ONLY!
to be franks, thank god those relatives has been treated unfair, they're having the same mind set though. we are not those greedy asshole, nor calculative personalities/ mentality. else... its gonna be so chaotic.
so, i wish all these good cousins live life healthy, happy and i still love u guys in MY list!!
hmm...... i just heard some thing really disturb my feeling for few mins. and that's enough! because i dun wan to spoil my sleeping mood.
one of my colleague just got pulled to a flight. well, pretty much disaster for her though, and sorry to know about it and thank god im not the victim for this whole chaotic senario!
this whole conversation is just disturbing and disappointing plus frustration, all about the work culture and is unfair treatment and... let's make it short. we're the flying slave, no on bother about our safety, our feeling.....ohh, ya! we dont have feeling cos we are 'robot', and robot doesnt need to care for their safety issue as well... well, i guess that's what they see us huh... seriously i cant believed all this silly joke.
stories start with miss frustration got pulled for a 8 hours flight during weekend. basically it's all good, just a job though.
after the long and tired flight, miss F has to report to the briefing, some sort of notify these group of breifing officers, kind of 'hey guys, im here, so where's the allowance and key to the room' when u show your face and give your staff number at the counter.
hmmm......lemme detail the stories one by one.
guess what?! they didnt prepare her room, means she has to sleep no where. but finally she got a room from the rest house from another lady supposed to stay in for her duty. as i mentioned rest house...that's pretty not good sign. as far we know, that's basically nothing in the room besides dusty furniture.. can u imagine that? after a 8 hours flight, to be exact, pre- and post- flight about 12 hours atleast, my colleague she's tired and seriously not in a good mood when she knew they didnt prepare the room in the first place. and then she has a dusty room. she had to wash her make up, clean the room before getting her rest. i can imagine how exhausted and frustrated she was. so... is this right to treat a crew after her flight?? come on, we are no longer base in kuwait, that's not an excuse and brushed us off when we start to give suggestions.
now comes to allwance.....the guy at the briefing told miss F this : it's weekend, no one is working in the office. seriously, i wanna clap my hands if im there right in front of them. and blow my mouth for it. what a classic respond!! really miss all these crap!!
the day after that miss F went to the office. she met the big boss in charging the base. gave her opinion about the safety issue when the gals are having standby at mid night. do u know that the gals has to drive all the way from their home to the airport at 11pm and 4am back home by themselves?? they cant go with the disembark crew from the airport, which other base they can plus they follow the transport provided by the company back to hotel. and by the way, the company ONLY pay for the insurance if any thing happen while travelling with the transport company provided. hmmmm........so which means the base crew in malaysia we are not insured even though we are on the way to duty huh?? by the way, the company doesnt want to provide transport to the base crew because they said we have the transport allwance. ok, fine i understand the transport allowance, but i need the insurance. the safety issue!! plus...alone for gals during late night. ahemm.. seriously, its pretty crazy!! what if some one got unlucky?! they may be killed or raped!! i wonder, is it when things happened only they wanna take action?? so GOD, please be with the gals, so each and everyone will be safe till problem solved!
still, some one blamed the gals by staying too far, its our problem.. hahhaah, very funny...but, excuse me! this is not kuwait, its malaysia. the area is huge! even the airport it self is freaking big, at least 10 times bigger than the kuwait international airport! and dont keep on saying we have better benefits than other base crew. this is due to the government issue, our malaysia government protect us under the labour law. and i have no comment on other countries, i can only say im farking sorry they're not malaysian!! plus, the living cost in malaysia is higher than others, so dont freaking compare alright? and stop saying we paid better!!
and this 'better' and 'lucky' from your side is freaking annoying!! tell me what is better? and tell me what is lucky??!! when comes to allowance, is that better? NO! when comes to annual leaves, is that better? NO! when comes to work load, work nature, is that better? farking NO!!
so, if u wanna compare, please compare every thing, all possibilities, all sectors and all out come. not just pin pointing and said we are lucky! next time, talk when u think twice, filter it with your brain cells and talk logic, not non sense!
all these while i kept conviced myself that my life is freaking colourful.... insteresting plus it's gonna be full of joy and happiness. but it turns out dull and flat, in short, im bored!!
hmm.....well, it's pretty nice to stay home. and hang out with friends during the week end and work on duty when i'm on duty. that's life right?? ya i think so, but i started to feel duno how again. any way im not looking for dramatic and chaotic life style. so far i feel.... i'm not so important. hahah, my phone is not ringing, no sms, basically it's just a hand carry watch or may be alarm. LOL...that's why some times i don't bring along my cell when i go out for movie, dinner... etc
basically i ady called all the friends i wanna hang out, and we did. just once.. that's it. and no one bother to buzz me, and everyone started to get busy for living. sighh....
seriously, some times i chose to stay home because i'm kindda moody. i don't wan to keep calling friends and ask them, or may be beg them to go out for a drink. so... i'm all alone again even though i'm back to malaysia. pretty pathetic!!!
frankly, i don't know what i want and what i should do at the moment.
went to hida's BD the other day at the new club, rootz. some sort of high class club?? i wonder. i was expecting some thing different since i heard alot from my fren about this new party place. but any way, im with the gals and i had fun, but the club.... hmm. i guess its all about alcohol and the person i hang out with, and of course the club not that cheapskate after all. but the service..... it takes u forever to get your drinks at the bar !!
as usual, dress up and hit the club with the gals once in a while after so long. dancing is a good exercise, i can stil feel the sore from muscles.... and thank god im not on duty these few days. and let's go out again gals..!
outfit of the day.......
can u see KL tower from here??!
the atmos inside the club... so crowded and conjested!
u know how i see those ZD all these while.... one word, bullshit!
operated another CGK recently, and every thing was fine except the turbulence that freak me out and the ZD cabin in-charge.
well, its common when the crew chat with each other. and u know what this so-hai ZD said to us in the transport. he said we Malaysian gal drawing the line between the kwi base crew and mys base crew.... ahemm, excuse me! who the hell u think u are! and how dare u interfere our conversation which is not related to work. ok, fine. the gals kept quiet and he acted smart on us and started to "lecture" us. said u gals just talk to each other in your language and didnt communicate with the kwi base crews...bla bla bla.....
actually i wanna said this to him: excuse me, as long as we answered the safety questions, do our job on board and follow the rules and that's it. u dont expect me or us to come and kiss your ass and talk to u alright, because u are not those kwi base which is my friend. im just a flight attendant that do my job, my job is not including entertain and talk to someone that i dont. just hi and bye, thank for the flight, team work during the flight that's it! there's no rules in the circular mentioned that i have to talk to other crew. i need to have peace of mind when i have the time to rest alright, so give me a break!!
these ZD they always selfish and just think about themselves... oh, did u ZD ever talk in english while chatting in the transport or even during flight?? NO! im the only SEA onboard some times and u guys dont even bother, so should i bother when u are the only one ?? and u get offended when u dont understand us?? by the way, i feel like an idiot when talk to ZD, u dont even have common sense nor general knowledge.. so why talk?? make me headache only when the ZD insisting their point of view and never accept others opinion or may be new idea... so better dont talk please! i feel sick after talking to u ZD.
hmm.... if u dont like the flight, so dont fly here and report sick in kwi alright!
some one told me once i don't have to be so tough on myself.
am i?? hmm...... im in disarray.
i believed im kindda out going, talkative, care about MY list of friends and family......umm... but, may be a little bit too lazy when comes to certain tasks/ issues. and too may be too mean and harsh towards certain people when i encounter some thing i feel uncomfortable with. so is that wrong?? im just me, i dun want to fake!
emm.... by the way, guys always after fake and plastic isn't it?? this is what i experienced. or they just vanished without keeping in touch, serious i wonder why, guess im too scary and look pretty ugly, plus they may be felt a shame when im around. hmmm.....what else? u tell me.
today is bored! although i went movie in the afternoon and still, i felt bored after i cook tom yam for dinner right after i went pasar malam [night market] with mom. i started to call some home town fren to hang out.... and non of them are available, due to work, some already slept....... sigh.. this job make me so odd.
since i cant go out, so........i started to sms. and guess what?? hahah, no response. NICE, serious!!
means from now on i dont have to give a fuck to any one any more huh?? means i dont have to be nice and offer my help or donate goods or money to ppl in need. some times i take things for granted doesnt means i dont return fav, just the fav is not immediate. emmm.....may be u guys duno me much... ya, who does any way.
well...thank you all for all these so i know myself better. and stop challenge my EQ alright?? bit emotional stress out currently!!
Seremban is a small town, not even a city! just a town. i was born here, raised here and stayed here till my age of 18. then i leave home to college, university and work. 10 years later im back to this small town again. why so?? haha, because i think its better to stay with family. and due to my easy and low work load job, i can stay in seremban instead.
any way, seremban is developing, and still going. where i stay is a new area, and every thing is near, basically i hang out near the neighbourhood only!
well, i just wan to have a simple and no staying with strangers, no traffic, no jam, no stress!
hmm.. well, its kindda bored some times. but what to do, i chose to stay with parents. spend some time with mom and of course mom will take care of every thing. i have home cook dishes. NICE!
i do nothing at home actually, just online, watch TV, get some groceries from the mall, market, watch movie, some karaoke entertainment and go for good food with mom once a while wander around Kuala Lumpur and Petaling Jaya.
kindda lazy to go out far though, just wan to hang out near by. some times im sorry when i gave lame excuses eg. the weather is hot, actually im serious, its pretty hot and im sweating! i hate that. and its raining.... hmm, its true! always rain now days. haha; else its too late for me to drive home, unless u give me a ride! LOL, i go where ever u want when u give me a ride.
30th to CGK, my first flight of the month OCT as well as the first flight as a operating crew from KUL to CGK. one whole month no work... isn't it cool. LOL. any way, this is my first time to CGK.. and it's far more lousy than i expected. seriously, i dislike every thing but i like the short flying hours and no layovers. in conclusion, I LOVE MY JOB. hehhe, who doesnt. low work load with the same money compare to those having tons of paper work working in the office.
basically, every thing is alright, pax is quiet, not demanding excepts some.. u know some ZD crap. those Caucasian still alright cos they're with indonesian wife. ahem..@ any way i just wanna have a safe and easy flight. this is what i wanna come back to malaysia although the wages is far more difference compare to kuwait. im fine with that cos i wan to regain my colourful life instead the dull and dead bored non social life style back in sand pit. crazy stupid, i wonder why i can cope with that. hmm.... guess money serious make me adapted to every thing.. hahha.
here some pix from the hotel for crew...
the way back from CGK.. wohoo, the weather was bad bad bad. thunder storm is the most scary part for me before landing. after gave my clearance and walked back to aft to take the crew seat. happily seating and waiting for landing.. suddenly a huge loud sound from the right side of the wing. damn! i so farking scared because the lighting hit the plane i believed so. told my colleague, dan i dont wish any thing bad happen, i still wanna go back to eat KFC from the KLIA airport! LOL
i started to have silence review, just in case any thing gonna happen. and started to tell GOD, please i wan to go back and have dinner every night with parents and party during week end when there's a night out else just wanna stay home and watch TV. im still young here..hahah, seriously i started to tell GOD im enjoying the simple life although its kindda bored back in home town, Seremban.
my blood pressure went slightly higher than usual and im still worried. 5 mins passed, thank God, nothing happen and no PA from Captain. good sign! and finally the chime of seat belt sign and no smoking sign, indicated the landing gear is ON. fuhh.... i cant wait to have a safe landing dude. and finally landed safely, and im clapping my hands! wohoooooo! we made it!
a day after, our interior CNN newsletter told us the aircraft still on ground, due to some technical problem. and it's from the lighting yesterday.. wau! what a crazy delay! almost 24 hours and 3 of my colleagues got pulled to operate the flight KUL-KWI. and once again, thank GOD, they didn't pull me on my day off. NO, thanks!