life isn't that interesting..

all these while i kept conviced myself that my life is freaking colourful.... insteresting plus it's gonna be full of joy and happiness. but it turns out dull and flat, in short, im bored!!

hmm.....well, it's pretty nice to stay home. and hang out with friends during the week end and work on duty when i'm on duty. that's life right?? ya i think so, but i started to feel duno how again. any way im not looking for dramatic and chaotic life style. so far i feel.... i'm not so important. hahah, my phone is not ringing, no sms, basically it's just a hand carry watch or may be alarm. LOL...that's why some times i don't bring along my cell when i go out for movie, dinner... etc

basically i ady called all the friends i wanna hang out, and we did. just once.. that's it. and no one bother to buzz me, and everyone started to get busy for living. sighh....

seriously, some times i chose to stay home because i'm kindda moody. i don't wan to keep calling friends and ask them, or may be beg them to go out for a drink. so... i'm all alone again even though i'm back to malaysia. pretty pathetic!!!

frankly, i don't know what i want and what i should do at the moment.

apu's Bday!

went to hida's BD the other day at the new club, rootz. some sort of high class club?? i wonder. i was expecting some thing different since i heard alot from my fren about this new party place. but any way, im with the gals and i had fun, but the club.... hmm. i guess its all about alcohol and the person i hang out with, and of course the club not that cheapskate after all. but the service..... it takes u forever to get your drinks at the bar !!

as usual, dress up and hit the club with the gals once in a while after so long. dancing is a good exercise, i can stil feel the sore from muscles.... and thank god im not on duty these few days. and let's go out again gals..!

outfit of the day.......

the gals.................

can u see KL tower from here??!

the atmos inside the club... so crowded and conjested!

bastard onboard for CGK

u know how i see those ZD all these while.... one word, bullshit!

operated another CGK recently, and every thing was fine except the turbulence that freak me out and the ZD cabin in-charge.

well, its common when the crew chat with each other. and u know what this so-hai ZD said to us in the transport. he said we Malaysian gal drawing the line between the kwi base crew and mys base crew.... ahemm, excuse me! who the hell u think u are! and how dare u interfere our conversation which is not related to work. ok, fine. the gals kept quiet and he acted smart on us and started to "lecture" us. said u gals just talk to each other in your language and didnt communicate with the kwi base crews...bla bla bla.....

actually i wanna said this to him: excuse me, as long as we answered the safety questions, do our job on board and follow the rules and that's it. u dont expect me or us to come and kiss your ass and talk to u alright, because u are not those kwi base which is my friend. im just a flight attendant that do my job, my job is not including entertain and talk to someone that i dont. just hi and bye, thank for the flight, team work during the flight that's it! there's no rules in the circular mentioned that i have to talk to other crew. i need to have peace of mind when i have the time to rest alright, so give me a break!!

these ZD they always selfish and just think about themselves... oh, did u ZD ever talk in english while chatting in the transport or even during flight?? NO! im the only SEA onboard some times and u guys dont even bother, so should i bother when u are the only one ?? and u get offended when u dont understand us?? by the way, i feel like an idiot when talk to ZD, u dont even have common sense nor general knowledge.. so why talk?? make me headache only when the ZD insisting their point of view and never accept others opinion or may be new idea... so better dont talk please! i feel sick after talking to u ZD.

hmm.... if u dont like the flight, so dont fly here and report sick in kwi alright!

me, me and myself

some one told me once i have to take things easy.

some one told me once i have to take life easy.

some one told me once i don't have to be so tough on myself.

am i?? hmm...... im in disarray.

i believed im kindda out going, talkative, care about MY list of friends and family......umm... but, may be a little bit too lazy when comes to certain tasks/ issues. and too may be too mean and harsh towards certain people when i encounter some thing i feel uncomfortable with. so is that wrong?? im just me, i dun want to fake!

emm.... by the way, guys always after fake and plastic isn't it?? this is what i experienced. or they just vanished without keeping in touch, serious i wonder why, guess im too scary and look pretty ugly, plus they may be felt a shame when im around. hmmm.....what else? u tell me.

today is bored! although i went movie in the afternoon and still, i felt bored after i cook tom yam for dinner right after i went pasar malam [night market] with mom. i started to call some home town fren to hang out.... and non of them are available, due to work, some already slept....... sigh.. this job make me so odd.

since i cant go out, so........i started to sms. and guess what?? hahah, no response. NICE, serious!!

means from now on i dont have to give a fuck to any one any more huh?? means i dont have to be nice and offer my help or donate goods or money to ppl in need. some times i take things for granted doesnt means i dont return fav, just the fav is not immediate. emmm.....may be u guys duno me much... ya, who does any way.

well...thank you all for all these so i know myself better. and stop challenge my EQ alright?? bit emotional stress out currently!!

days in SEREMBAN

Seremban is a small town, not even a city! just a town. i was born here, raised here and stayed here till my age of 18. then i leave home to college, university and work. 10 years later im back to this small town again. why so?? haha, because i think its better to stay with family. and due to my easy and low work load job, i can stay in seremban instead.

any way, seremban is developing, and still going. where i stay is a new area, and every thing is near, basically i hang out near the neighbourhood only!

well, i just wan to have a simple and no staying with strangers, no traffic, no jam, no stress!

hmm.. well, its kindda bored some times. but what to do, i chose to stay with parents. spend some time with mom and of course mom will take care of every thing. i have home cook dishes. NICE!

i do nothing at home actually, just online, watch TV, get some groceries from the mall, market, watch movie, some karaoke entertainment and go for good food with mom once a while wander around Kuala Lumpur and Petaling Jaya.

kindda lazy to go out far though, just wan to hang out near by. some times im sorry when i gave lame excuses eg. the weather is hot, actually im serious, its pretty hot and im sweating! i hate that. and its raining.... hmm, its true! always rain now days. haha; else its too late for me to drive home, unless u give me a ride! LOL, i go where ever u want when u give me a ride.

KU415 KUL-CGK

30th to CGK, my first flight of the month OCT as well as the first flight as a operating crew from KUL to CGK. one whole month no work... isn't it cool. LOL. any way, this is my first time to CGK.. and it's far more lousy than i expected. seriously, i dislike every thing but i like the short flying hours and no layovers. in conclusion, I LOVE MY JOB. hehhe, who doesnt. low work load with the same money compare to those having tons of paper work working in the office.

basically, every thing is alright, pax is quiet, not demanding excepts some.. u know some ZD crap. those Caucasian still alright cos they're with indonesian wife. ahem..@ any way i just wanna have a safe and easy flight. this is what i wanna come back to malaysia although the wages is far more difference compare to kuwait. im fine with that cos i wan to regain my colourful life instead the dull and dead bored non social life style back in sand pit. crazy stupid, i wonder why i can cope with that. hmm.... guess money serious make me adapted to every thing.. hahha.

here some pix from the hotel for crew...

the way back from CGK.. wohoo, the weather was bad bad bad. thunder storm is the most scary part for me before landing. after gave my clearance and walked back to aft to take the crew seat. happily seating and waiting for landing.. suddenly a huge loud sound from the right side of the wing. damn! i so farking scared because the lighting hit the plane i believed so. told my colleague, dan i dont wish any thing bad happen, i still wanna go back to eat KFC from the KLIA airport! LOL

i started to have silence review, just in case any thing gonna happen. and started to tell GOD, please i wan to go back and have dinner every night with parents and party during week end when there's a night out else just wanna stay home and watch TV. im still young here..hahah, seriously i started to tell GOD im enjoying the simple life although its kindda bored back in home town, Seremban.

my blood pressure went slightly higher than usual and im still worried. 5 mins passed, thank God, nothing happen and no PA from Captain. good sign! and finally the chime of seat belt sign and no smoking sign, indicated the landing gear is ON. fuhh.... i cant wait to have a safe landing dude. and finally landed safely, and im clapping my hands! wohoooooo! we made it!

a day after, our interior CNN newsletter told us the aircraft still on ground, due to some technical problem. and it's from the lighting yesterday.. wau! what a crazy delay! almost 24 hours and 3 of my colleagues got pulled to operate the flight KUL-KWI. and once again, thank GOD, they didn't pull me on my day off. NO, thanks!

dim sum + IKEA

went PJ with mom and aunt for a day cos wanna go for dim sum and IKEA for some stuffs.

u know, cant afford to have the custome made furniture so i have to go for those low price ikea furniture... wahhaha. but its good enough to fit into the room, at least look a little bit cosy and neat though.

the dim sum was okay, at least not bad. any way i ate good and full. so gonna have more and more dim sum soon... my fav breakfast other than the nasi lemak wrapped with banana's leaf.

here's the pix.. enjoy it!

this the classic "siew mai"
this is nice.....

IKEA.... hm. a place to spend on house again. seriously dislike to go here actually, every time seems like so many things suit the house cos its handy and save place. hahah.

any way thanks to cousin brother and fren that gave me a ride on the way going and back home. thanks alot!

first week back to Malaysia....

Finally im back to Malaysia… for good? umm, not very sure its gonna be good forever or.. may be some thing happen later and I need to change my plan.

quite a lot of things to do once I arrived home. any how almost settle, which is good news though.

Started to contact some friends…. some but not all, cos kindda malas. may be I missed of some, but what so ever man, janji will see each other one day. i just wan to finish get all the things done then I can start relax and lepak with u guys ya. don’t you worry, sooner or later we will meet up.

so far I met few closed friend from home town, hang out of course. I love to drink, talk and relax! I had fun, thank you guys. and most important is you qaD, a very good friend from the north. you always my favorite, do u know that.. haha. miss u buddy, a lot!

And thanks for calling… finally u have time to call up although I sent u a message few days ago. Serious appreciate that, and I see u next month in Kuala Lumpur with your wife! Right here waiting for u buddy, cant wait to crap talk with u once again! Always make me laugh a lot like before!

dubai with sweet heart

what a wonderful trip to dubai... wohoo! i had fun, serious. and thanks dear..!

and thanks to the company that approved my last minute emergency leaves before i go back Malaysia for good.

basically i didnt shop for this trip... amazing huh?! hahha, ya. not even a single accessories for myself.

i spent most of the time sleeping, and out dining plus drinking with Dec. and of course get to met Petra for lunch. and you Kyennie, u came to Dubai and i didnt know that.. wahhaha. and we were in the same mall on the same day! but its's okay, gonna meet u soon.

some places we went.... we means im going out with some one to these places.. wahaha!

here go some pix in the album....

vodka for the breakfast morning juice...and the rest of the days
the local note and coins..

chilling while surfing the net... just an excuse to drink.. i like.
the view near the apartment...on my way to the walk at the beach
my dinner.... yum yum!

beach side party.. sort of.

nice view from jumeirah..

this is wow.. but i dare not look down! thank you for taking this pix.. hahha

the hotel, bur al-arab

burj dubai... the tallest building in 2010...

my surprise trip by you... hahha, nice!

the wooden ship near dubai museum...

sunset view while we walk back to the parking

cool place.. neos at the address

fountain at dubai mall.... view from neos. its very cool..... !

the address next to dubai mall....

and many thanks to you hon, to make the efford spending time and took me out..that's really nice, and seriously appreciate that. i had great fun and moment with you sweet and i see u in Malaysia or some where in the world very soon.

i though i found it.....

emm.. serious what a surprise moment ever! shock* to be exact!!

i thought i found it... and seems... its like bubble again! damn damn damn.. i wanna scream and i wanna cry! but its okay..! nothing can kill me, not this time!

ya... i look tought and strong that's why i got all this huh. because u guys think im gonna be fine and i can handle it.. ya sooooo farking right!!! and u guys go and pay sympathy to someone looks/ acting weaker. i want to act weak too..... i wan to show im really weak inside okay! why i never have a chance???? damn farking not fair!!

arggggghh!! i hate this feeling...

seriously, is it something wrong with me?? what's going wrong here?